diagnosis crazy head?

For the last couple days I have had a major case of what Frecklegirl likes to call Crazy Head. Or rather, a variant of Crazy Head. 'Cause I'm not worrying, I'm just feeling crazy.

Mostly, this has included thoughts of dropping out of school for really stupid reasons. It has also included ultra sensitivity, exhibited today by my inability to hold back tears when my application for a new drivers license was rejected by a completely stoney DMV clerk (this, because I didn't have enough identification. I only had my passport, current license, checks for proof of my address, car insurance and registration papers. Of course, they needed MORE. One piece for each thing they needed "proof" of, including a damn signature. Because, you know, my old drivers license was not enough. That one counted as proof of my age and couldn't count as proof of anything else. She says, "I could take your birth certificate, loan papers, voided check..." WTF lady? Who carries that stuff around with them? Especially when said person was very thoughtful in packing her paperwork for the 30 minute commute to the DMV, then waited in line for 30 minutes. Sorry to vent, but ARRRGGGGHHHHHH!).

I've been wondering if this isn't really a new thing, but an ongoing problem. Have I had perpetual crazy head for the last several months? As evidence, I present the knitting: 

That red thing is the wrap from wrap style that I started back in September. So. Much. Ribbing. It would have come in handy in my drafty house this winter, but no. It has languished and languished.

That aqua-y thing is my one jaywalker sock. I wanted to be on to number two and even done with these by now.

White thing is cabled bandeau. The chart isn't too hard, but it takes brain power and I don't have much of that these days. So there it is, unfinished.

So what do I do? I start something new.

 

That's the beginnings of a Somewhat Cowl. Because I really NEEDED a new project.*

This isn't like me. I tend to be a one or two projects at a time kind of girl. I've finished other things recently, so it's not finishing that's keeping me at bay. I don't get it. Just looking at all these projects on the needles makes me feel a little crazy. Evidence of perpetual crazy head? I think yes. 

Or, perhaps this is all because I am turning 29 years old in 8 days? I've also been sort of sick. And sort of bored. I'm not sure how it's all connected, but I'd say it's all starting to make sense...

*Actually, I think I kind of did need to start making this. I love the look. And this yarn (soy silk)? In this color? Well, it had to happen. So this one wasn't my fault. The yarn made me do it.

Comments

[Jenny]

If you have crazy head, we all have it, sister. ;-) Hang in there. That Cowl will be spectacular. Just the thing to get you through all this life crap.

Happy early birthday!

[carrie m]

you are *not* crazy. who hasn't been in tears at the dmv? (i was last year when the woman kept typing in my vehicle id number wrong and accused me of fraud! i kept saying, "ma'am, you are typing it in wrong!" i was petrified and definitely in tears.)

anyway. i love my somewhat cowl and encourage you to start yours!

[thereluctantninja]

if you have crazy head then i love it. i love your crazy head just the way it is.

ps. don't drop out of school.

pps. did you get my hugs in the mail? i sent 32...

[Cathi]

Sometimes more is better- I know what you mean, and I'm sorry it's been a rough week. Cast-on therapy is sometimes the only thing that helps.

[nicole]

OMG! i cried when i was shut out of the dallas dmv for the second time in one day because i only had my proof of insurance, passport, checkbook, credit cards and drivers license. and of course to get your license you have to get insurance and to get insurance you have to have a car inspection, THEN my car failed that too. i can't even think about it without cringing. but i totally understand. and happy early birthday too. 29. wowie wow. time's going by so fast. give me your address so i can send you a sweet texas treat. miss you! xoxo.

[megan]

I have been reduced to tears by a Social Security clerk before for the same reasons so I hear you. For goodness sake, why must they make it so difficult? Sounds like you needed the cowl. And it will be lovely! Happy early birthday too - hope it's a great one!

[Kate]

I know the feeling when it comes to school. I just posted yesterday about how I want to stop and focus on things I really like and to stop having to write paper on top of paper.

Happy early birthday! Love the cowl, what a gorgeous blue. Also looks like I'll be seeing you in Maryland once we all figure out a hotel to stay at. Can't wait to meet you!!

[boogelydboogedyboo barrie]

i agree with what therelunctantninja said. don't drop out silly!

and did you read what happened to me yesterday? started the car. doesn't start. shut the car door. keys still in car. i called the towing place and they for sure thought i was a moron.

i was pretty impressed that 300 dollars later, i didn't cry once.

happy happy. birthday birthday.